rat race.

i've lived sixteen years. sixteen prosperous sucessful years give or take a few. yet i still can't comprehend the human mind.it's far beyond anyones ideas scientific or otherwise. all i can tell for sure is that everything anyone does these days is for self gain. beit social financial or otherwise. but why? what does any of this get you? a reputation to with hold when you know the only reason you have itis because you've stepped on so many you've held close to you? I'm sosick and tired of being the one you step on to reach your hieghts. tomost throughout my life i've been the one that will do until you findsomething/someone better. I'll give you an example a best friend of 3years but now no longer and i were reminissing along with the otherperson in the friendship and in the end the girl turned to 2 of us andsaid we were sad. but had we really been sad? at the time it satisfiedher. at the time she was happy with it but little did we know we werejust a step in her social climb to have the life she does today which ican say is no where near as good as what we all had together. i can alsoname about five other people and circumstances when this has alsohappened to me over the past year and a half. is it that everyone elseis growing up and I'm just living in an alternate/previous reality or isthe world really as screwed as i see it. i can honestly say i have neverever taken anyone for granted. not my friends, enemies, family members,colegues, teachers or other passers by throughout my time. i don't thinkthere's many others around here that can say the same about. show me where all the good has gone.