cute playlists

memories to last a life time
happiness to drown out the tears
is it too much to look for in life?

new.

find me something new, someone new, somewhere new.

rat race.

i've lived sixteen years. sixteen prosperous sucessful years give or take a few. yet i still can't comprehend the human mind.it's far beyond anyones ideas scientific or otherwise. all i can tell for sure is that everything anyone does these days is for self gain. beit social financial or otherwise. but why? what does any of this get you? a reputation to with hold when you know the only reason you have itis because you've stepped on so many you've held close to you? I'm sosick and tired of being the one you step on to reach your hieghts. tomost throughout my life i've been the one that will do until you findsomething/someone better. I'll give you an example a best friend of 3years but now no longer and i were reminissing along with the otherperson in the friendship and in the end the girl turned to 2 of us andsaid we were sad. but had we really been sad? at the time it satisfiedher. at the time she was happy with it but little did we know we werejust a step in her social climb to have the life she does today which ican say is no where near as good as what we all had together. i can alsoname about five other people and circumstances when this has alsohappened to me over the past year and a half. is it that everyone elseis growing up and I'm just living in an alternate/previous reality or isthe world really as screwed as i see it. i can honestly say i have neverever taken anyone for granted. not my friends, enemies, family members,colegues, teachers or other passers by throughout my time. i don't thinkthere's many others around here that can say the same about. show me where all the good has gone.

herbal medicine?

so i go to the doctors for medical advice, turns out i could have saved mum $50 and just kept doing what i was already doing.
i also have a history SAC tomorrow which i am no way prepared for due to being sick and perhaps too much overindulgance in extra curricular activities.

anyway time to go nerd it up.x

rewire. reset. reborn.

All bets are off, all beef is squashed and now i'm makin' firewood out of my soapbox. slit the throat of my highhorse and right my wrongs all in due course. rewire my brain and i'll start again. its funny how the smallest, most seemingly insignificant things can make you step back and reevaluate your whole life. looking in mirror and relising that youre just a fucking wanker like everyone else. i cant deal with this shit in my life anymore. i cant be this idiot for one more day. rewire. reset. reborn. crack open my head and rip it all out, get rid of all the bullshit that i can do without, for today i leave it all behind and tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life!